My girlfriends poems:

I WISH

I wish I'd told you,
All the things I needed to say.
I wish we'd done,
All the things you said we'd do.

I wish you'd never left,
Like a star, which was never there.
I wish you'd stayed, 
Just a little longer here.

I wish I could still share,
All the things I dare.
'I Wish' never made a dream come true,
I only wish that you could hear me too.

A silver tear onto crystal skies.
Melting mortals tumbling from mars.
From purple skies, falling black moons.
A dirge song echoes in a hollow soul.
Behind blue faced masks
Lurk green coloured souls.
A copper thorn pierces an iron heart.
Black blood, through pounding jugular. 
Purple lust overcomes red love.
Icy fingers clench bloody heart.
Steel teeth tear your dreams.
And never more shall we see.


An opaque vase, with crystal petals,
Shedding leaves of silver copper.
A purpling sunset among curdling clouds.
Piercing sunlight burns paper holes.
A moonlight tear shed from midnight rose.
Yellow raindrops melt the trees.
A green, green sky with blue, blue grass.
A hidden face has hidden tears.
From an icy core, comes forth warmth.
But you cannot hide from the fierce stare.

LOOSING LOVE

A long lost love
With crocodile tears.
Weeping eyes, 
With a bone-dry soul.
Secrets shared,
Are timeless thoughts.
Buried dreams,
Come back to haunt.
Restless hands,
Long to touch.
Longing eyes,
Fleetingly meet.
Haunting melodies,
Carry forgotten memories.
Promises broken.
Lies told.
Beds unmade.
Love lost.

A hidden passage has hidden dreams.
Silent tears behind closed doors.
Secret locks with skeleton keys.
Deadened footsteps echo in empty halls.
Mute laughter in shallow rooms.
Cryptic smiles have mystic implications.
Soft embraces forever silent.
And may love forever reign.

MORTAL SINS

At night you scream
For godly sins.
And with tainted breath
You whisper her name.

Unforgiven sins linger forever
In an empty soul. 
Where all is remembered
And nothing forgiven.

Remember now 
With unholy remains
How at night
You whispered my name.

A death black rose
Shall lie on your grave,
Beside the one 
Whom you never forgave.

TRUE LOVE

Empty thoughts
Run through my brain.
Making no sense
In a world full of pain.

Trust in me
I'll not let you fall.
In the dark 
I hear you call.

My bleeding heart,
Pierced by a thorn,
Leaks the lifeblood
From which I was born.

You're gentle words
Ease my pain,
As I watch 
The full moon wane.

Your true love
Shall always remain strong.
So I may hold
Your love forever long.

A BROKEN HEART

A whole heart broken, 
Patched up with care.
A broken heart,
Patched up with love.
Broken again,
Patched up with lust.
Once again it is broken,
Patched up with revenge.
Once more broken,
Shattered with death.

FATE?

When will I
See your soul?
To see the sky 
Black as coal.

Gentle words,
Caress my heart.
Bats become birds
As each play their part.

To forget about love,
To never lie.
To look above
As love passes you by.

To never forget.
To never be late.
To never regret.
Is it all up to fate?

EVIL SKIES

A glinting eye 
Looks out of the dark.
A shroud of hate
Surrounding it's presence.

A evil laugh,
In languid darkness,
Shatters a rose 
Till it is but a thorn.

A silver thorn
Pierces your chest, 
Where your heart 
Once lay in desolation.

Your soul is now free
To travel the skies,
Where love is lost,
And hatred found...
The Truth

Here I lie,
Alone on my bed.
Thoughts of love
Circling my head.

Sometimes I wish
We'd never met
And never alone 
A tear to have shed.

I see your face
And love fills my heart.
I only wish 
We would never be apart.

Love comes a knocking
On your door,
Only twice 
In your long life.

So grab a hold 
With both hands fast,
Before this love
For you has past.

LET ME GO

A wounded heart
Sheds bitter tears,
Of endless pain
That burns deep inside.

A silver ring
Holds many a key.
For everyone's heart
Has a lock.

To my heart
You hold the key.
And when inside
You locked the lock.

How I wish
I could go back in time,
To never have met
And never a tear to have shed.

I thought my heart 
Could never love again.
But I was wrong 
As you have proved.

I can never let you go
For the pain I feel you'll never know.
I have cared for you for so long,
Now please free my heart, so I can move along.

IF ONLY YOU'D LISTENED

Echoing words of betrayal
Haunt my regret-filled soul.
You're glazed over eyes
Remain in my thoughts.
If only you'd listened
To my words of warning
Which fell upon deadened ears.
Your body lies
Crumpled on the floor
Where it shall lie
Forever more.
You're lovely mind
Corrupted with crazy ideas,
Listened to no reason
From my rational mind.
If only you'd listened...

MONSTERS OF DEATH

I wish I'd noticed
All the signs of sin.
I wish I'd heard
Your hushed screams of pain.
I wish you'd never left me
Alone in this world of betrayal,
To fend for myself
Against the monsters of death, 
Which stole your soul.
I won't make 
The same mistakes.
I watched you fall
With a deadening thump, 
Never to return again
To the life of laughter.
I only wish 
It wasn't such a harsh lesson for me to learn.

BIG MISTAKE

On the market are your souls.
The souls which so long ago were sold.
The first comes up.
It is black and empty...
You look in the mirror and see your soul-
An empty sphere, long forgotten.
Out of the dark, a haunting wail.
Whispering your name and beckoning your soul.
It tears with teeth of gold and claws of steel.
Your strength weakens, releasing your soul.
It leaves your body and enters his chest of treasures.
He throws his head back and chuckles with glee.
For he has won, and you have lost your soul.
Your vacant eyes search the night.
As your empty heart
Once again tries to love.
Too late...

THE MIMIC

He is dressed in black.
His face painted white.
A lonely tear painted in black.
'Let me read you soul'
He proclaims as he struts around, hands on hips.
A burly man
Offers his soul to the mimic.
The mimic accepts with delight.
A circle of people form
Around this proclaimer of insight.
The mimic circles his victim,
He shows his tear and taps his chest
Then shows a smile and paints his face.
You think this looks grand
And offer up your soul with a grin.
The mimic circles your being,
He shows the air and then taps your chest.
The crowd laughs.
From the circle you run,
As a tear runs down the mimic's cheek,
Smudging the lonely black tear.

Life long dreams of forgotten hopes.
Whispering words, linger like clouds.
Faithful words have lost their meaning.
Loving eyes have turned to lust.
Caressing hands have turned to rust.
Long lost promises have remembered debts.
And long wept tears shall never dry.

THE DECEIVER

An empty silence
Containing my inner-self.
Echoing in my mind are the pleading cries
Of a persona once forgotten.
To release my soul
Shall deceive you all.
From the dark depths of the earth below
I hear a call and my soul follows.
Wrenching from my being, I hold on tightly
And yet...
He seems so sweet...
I release my soul with a pleading cry for help.
He grins at me and laughs.
He lied.
Everybody lied.

TAINTED WORDS

Your septic tongue
Of godly juices
Entwines the thorns
Of my languid rose.

You're empty soul
Which never embraces,
Clutches the knife
To thy chest.

The words you mutter
Hold no meaning
Except to those
You worship.

The blood upon your stained hands
Drenches my holy lips. 
Your tainted lips shall whisper
Your songs of hatred forever more.

LIES

My heart still bleeds from the cuts
Which with welding knives you cut with lust.
Your empty soul still echoes my name 
With love forgotten and lust rekindled.

The dancing flame
Which alights in your eyes
Every time I whisper your name,
Is the same flame of hate, which never dies.

With hastened footsteps
You stumble away
To never forget 
The love for which you pay.

Your smiles of hate hide behind
The lust which rules your love.
Your love which lies forever
And never forgets.

SHATTERED DREAMS

Pitted against the evil shroud
My languid rose shall shatter.
Dropping from it's stony henge
Into a presence of darkness.
My lips are drenched in your blood
As to your knees you drop.
Collapsing under your heavy heart
The heart I have but broken.
Your eyes alone tell the story
Of a thousand love filled years.
Shattered by my longing dreams
Of which you are no part.
My quest for love has broken your heart.
And only now do I see
The one whose love was real.

New ones:

Darkness,
By myself,
As per usual.
I wonder, what's new?
Do you think you care?
Nothing! Compared to what I feel.
I love you with all my heart!
Ha! I bet you did not even know!
I have loved since the day we met.
And, of course, every single day since then.
Even though you don't seem to care.
Sure you flirt with me every time
But that doesn't count as love.
Maybe in your world
Playing around often
With me
Counts.

ALL MY LOVE

Here I lie.
Another night alone.
I see you leave
With someone else.

This always seems
To happen to me.
Day after day.
Year after year.

You don't know
That I even exist,
And yet my entire world
Revolves around you.

You go after her
Asking my advice
Not even knowing
The pain I am feeling.

If only you would see,
Open up your heart,
And see
The one whose love is real.

You think she cares,
But she doesn't.
She uses you
And I can't tell you.

We flirt, all day everyday
And yet never add it up
To form anything more.
Why Not?

Are you scared?
To reveal yourself?
Are you scared? 
to be loved?

I would make you so happy
That when you woke
And when you slept
You'd be filled with love.

I know I'm young
And don't know much
But this much I know
I love you.

THANK YOU

Thank you,
For filling up my life
For making me feel real
For showing me love

Thank you,
For protecting my soul
For caressing my hurts
For sheltering my heart

Thank you,
For letting me live
For forgiving me my wrongs
For being you

Thank you, 
For making me laugh
For showing me happiness
For letting me love you.

SOMETIMES

Sometimes, the sun shall shine
Sometimes, the clouds shall come,
When the sun shines I'll be around,
When the clouds come I'll be there,
To hold your hand,
To embrace the pain
Sometimes love is natural,
Sometimes love is tested,
Tested with pain,
Tested with difficulties,
Too hard to explain,
And all the time,
I shall be your constant,
Your hug in your time of need,
Your smile in your time of doubt,
Your heart speaks the truth,
Trust it, and embrace 
What it declares.
Mine declares love,
Love for you alone.
So when you doubt me,
When you hear no truths,
Hear my heart,
It beats your name.
You are my lifeblood,
My better half
We are one.
United together.
Forever.
In my heart.
I love you.

HAVE YOU EVER?

Have you ever felt so alone,
That when you cry
You can hear the tears
Rolling down your face?
Have you ever felt so sad,
That you look in the mirror
And yet see not a glimmer
Of the happiness which 
There once glowed?
Have you ever felt so ugly,
That you avoid any contact
With the outside world
Because you're scared 
Of what they might say?
Have you ever felt so much of a failure,
That you never want to try,
That whatever you do
You know deep inside
That you are going to fail?
Well I have,
I've been to hell and beyond,
Trying to escape these feelings of pain,
To try and overcome these fears
Which still cause me too much grief.
I can't stand up to these accusations,
Accusations from those close to me,
Accusations of failure, ugliness, loneliness and sadness

TOO MUCH

Looking out,
Of my crystal cage,
Echo the words,
Clean-cut as glass,
Piercing the scars,
Trying to heal.
Making new wounds,
With every word,
Tearing my soul,
Into tiny shreds
Which form a mere shadow
Of myself.
I try to tell them,
They just laugh,
I try to escape them,
They just follow,
I try to forget them
But memories are too fresh.
I try to explain
The way I feel inside,
To show the hurts
And expose the pain.
To show the scars,
All bruised and burned, 
But no one can see,
For they are inside,
And I am but a smiling face
On the outside

EXPRESSIONS

Glowing embers of hatred,
Burning deep inside.
Consuming all the love
That for my elders I held.
Eating all that's in it's path,
Breathing all my air.
It eats away inside me,
Destroying all that is sacred.
Taking over my entire being,
Controlling all my actions,
Licking all my desires,
Tempting me to let go.
To let go of all they've said,
To let go of all they've done to me.
To be free of their constricting hands,
And their piercing words.
Words which cut and tear my soul
Ripping at it's weakest points,
And severing the nerves.

A WISH TO DIE

Evening shades of purple-black,
Covering the bruises on my soul.
Presents of guilt, lay at my feet,
Presents as bribes, are all they are.
They're all around me
Scattered like seed.
An impossible dream,
To be myself, to live my dreams,
And to fulfill my ambitions.
They laugh in my face, 
And tell me I lie.
They spit in my face,
And wish me to die.
An everlasting slumber
Seems my only escape.
To lie in graven filth,
And let my dreams decay.
May angels escort me to my sleep
And may a blood red rose
Lie on my grave.